D.E.A.D. - Drug Induced Schizophrenia, Live @ The DefSup Hunger Cabaret 2009 - Black Pirate’s Pub Thunder Bay, ON

lyrics:

I had ventured out on a far ledge, to follow a narrowing path
Of which I waivered on either side
From utter self destruction and insanity - to preservation and rational thought
But when the path could thin no more, my spectrum of reality had merged
No longer divided by linear pursuit
I became immersed in the harrowing waters of mental chasm

…..and the anxiety’s sunk in and I’m never coming down!
Or back to what I’ve once known
In isolation yet I feel I’m not alone
…..a fractured mind hosts the manifesto well
A shroud of demons dispell
Unknown are the workings that only time can tell

This drug induced hell I’ve created for myself

Falling through the mirrors looking back at someone else

Why can’t I find the path leading back the way I came?

I can never return home, things will never be the same

Awakened, but to what I’m not quite sure
I have no memory of my surroundings, I feel alien to my former self
Now united with these strange inhabitants, darkened days are upon us
Feeding off our own insecurities, loathing in self-inflicted pain
A frantic incoherant nature becomes me
A futile cry for help as I succumb to the demons tumultuous will

Disorienting scenes of hell haunt me through the weeks
Abandoned by my loved ones left to die out on these streets
Lay blankets on the sidewalk where I make my cold damp bed
But I never sleep with all the voices in my head!

This unrelenting nightmare consumes my beings soul
Unfathomable to see how far addiction takes its toll
I’m running from my own mind these dreams are all too real
A self inflicted death is refuge when one cannot heal

(inaudible cryptic part)